Don't faint, but it has been less than three weeks, and yes, you are hearing from me again! We had a great experience this weekend though, and I just keep thinking about writing about it. It had such a huge impact on me personally, I just feel like shouting it to the world. So, here it goes--Friday night single and married people in our area between the ages of 18-32 were invited to go and listen to Elder Bednar, Elder Anderson, and Elder Zwick of the seventy. Seth and I went with another couple in our stake. No, I didn't meet them personally and get their autograph--that was not what was so great. In fact, we were the last row in the very back of the gym. It was a question and answer session with around 1500 people. Elder Bednar told us he would not be the teacher, but the Holy Ghost would be doing the instructing. And he was. Through that meeting the Spirit taught us each what we needed to know and answered each of our questions in our hearts. That was what was so amazing. In a room full of so many people we all went away with the knowledge that the Lord loves us, he knows us, and we can be better. And the amazing thing was it's not anything new. Years ago, before I got married, before I had kids, I used to feel love and guidance from the Lord everyday. I used to take long walks, I'd sit and read my scriptures, I'd ponder and pray, I'd go to Seminary, Institute classes, firesides... Now, my days fly by, my prayers are often hurried, I get a verse in here and there throughout the week, and I don't even get to sit through sacrament meeting. I have wondered why the Lord moved away from me. Why has he left me alone? What has happened? I have wondered that for years. Friday night a light went on. The formula is the same: read the scriptures, ponder, pray. I'm the one that doesn't take the time to find Him anymore. But I realized Friday night that I can still have that. All I need to do is invite the Spirit into my life more.
I didn't realize I even had questions, until the meeting started. But I did, we all do. Seth and I have been struggling with our noisy kids in church, and where do we belong in our ward? Through a single man's question of 'where do I fit in at church?' I learned we all feel that way, and that I am going to church for the wrong reasons. It is not about fitting in, although that is wonderful when it happens. We go to show the Lord we love Him. We take the sacrament, and one day we will meet Him again. We want to be right with Him. It is about our personal relationship with the Lord.
That was just one of the questions that brought peace to my heart. With how troubling the world is, I think we all went to the meeting half expecting some kind of amazing instruction to prepare for the great and terrible last days. (I mean, you'd expect that living in Nevada and California, right?) What I got instead was hope, peace, and feelings that the world is a wonderful place to live in. The leadership of the Lord's church is optimistic. I feel inspired and excited to move forward. I don't feel alone.
I got to see Elder Zwick a bit closer up today at Stake Conference. I got asked to accompany the choir with my viola. I sat behind Elder Zwick on the stand. Afterwards he told me thank you. Seth was home with sick kids. It has been a full weekend, but very uplifting. I feel much more ready for the weeks and years ahead.
We also went to the lake on Saturday. The kids got to ride in our friend's boat and wade in the water. They had a blast!
I added a song Seth really likes lately. This guy from Norway won the Eurovision contest with this awesome fiddling song. It's like a circus act.